Brother
Yahya Dhulfiqar Abdus-Salaam
Asalaamu Alaikum W/r W/b,
My name is Brother Yahya Abdus-Salaam, I am a 17 year old revert to
Islam who has chosen to personally submit to the Jafar'i Madhab of
Islam.
I grew up as the youngest of two boys raised by my single parent
Filipina Mother, I was given a very strong and well disciplined
upbringing by her and she also raised both me and my brother to have the
foundations of faith in our hearts. Being a Filipina from the capital
city of Manila, she was of the Roman Catholic denomination of
Christianity (he ancestors were taken from Islam into Christianity by
the Sword of the Spanish Inquisitors) and so I too was raised as a Roman
Catholic. Unfortunately from the age of 9-13, I stopped attending any
religious gatherings what so ever, but I always remained interested in
all aspects of theology, I read of Hindu, Ancient Egyptian and Buddhist
legends as a child and the more I read, the more I became interested.
Little was I aware of it at the time, but I was exposed to Islam for
much of my life, my father (whom I`d see for 2 weeks a year) worked in
Indonesia for 12 years of my life, before moving to Kuwait then Egypt,
each of which I have visited. However I was not aware of Islam to a very
high extent, in fact my ignorance was to such an extent that before
going into High School, I thought the Hijab was a Hindu sub-continental
practice!!
At the age of 13, I went through a difficult experience, I started to
let stress from school get to me and to help cope with these
difficulties, I became a "born again" Catholic and I took my first
communion at the late age of 13 along with kids of 9 years old etc. I
became a firm believer of the Christian doctrine and believed at that
time with all my heart that Christ was the Son of God (Astagfirullah), I
could never except he was God himself.
When I was 14 going on 15, I visited Egypt for the second time and
decided to pay a visit to the world's oldest University in existance-
The Al-Azhar Theological School of the Sunni Madhabs, it was a
life-changing experience for I was given my first translation of the
Holy Qur'an.
I returned to the UK, with the copy of the Holy Qur'an Translation by
Pickthall, and I continued my studies of religion etc at home. I decided
that at that time after completing High School, I was going to train to
become a Minister outwith the Catholic Church because I couldn't agree
with either the divinity of the Pope nor with the Divinity of Christ or
pact of celibacy anymore. I was drawn to the various denominations
outwith Catholicism but couldn't agree with the divinity of Christ
anymore so I left the faith of Christianity and became an Agnostic.
I continued my studies of religion and was drawn to the following
faiths:
Judaism (Kabballah)- Was put off by the Racial Superiority teachings
within the Jewish Faith.
Jehovah's Witnesses- Seemed to be very cult-like and I could never fully
take it seriously.
Bahai'ism- I realised it was a very bad attempt at uniting all the
various faith's founders/prophets despite the fact all of them
contradicted each other.
Then came Islam, I had forgotten about Islam for a while, It seemed as
if It was the only faith I never taken the time to study, and
Alhamdulillah- I'm glad I had chosen to study it at this time, if it had
been during my Christian believing child days, I may have rejected it.
Islam was everything I wanted Christianity to be and I could accept
everything so easily. I had many issues over how I'd break the news to
my family, but I went ahead and read more about the religion for a
complete year, I was damned not going to be joining a religion through
ignorance only to leave it one year later.
Alhamdulillah after one year of reading, I decided I was definitely to
become a Muslim so at the age of late 15, I recited Shahada to myself
without any witnesses at first. I openly told my family after 3 months
but since I knew more about religion in general as well as Christianity
I had the ability to refute whatever lies they had to throw at me.
I became a Shaf'i Sunni Muslim, and at first I honestly believed that I
wouldn't go near Shia Islam with a barge pole, I saw them as Catholics
of Islam, and thought of Imamate to be Islamic Popery. It was just my
irrationaly hatred for the Catholic Church that had allowed my emotions
to take over, also I must admit for someone who has just come into Islam
after researching concepts on the internet (often Salafi), We are often
propelled into a drastic change where we are turned into Over zealous
Monotheists who due to insecurity of their Monotheism turn to accusing
many practices of Shirk (Associating partners with Allah) or we accuse
them of being Bidah (Innovations).
I started going to my local Mosque, I learnt Islam under the Sheikh of
the Mosque and I learnt to love the companions of the Prophet, but most
of all I learnt the strength of love for Allah (SWT) which is
uncomparable and I learnt to love the Prophet Muhammad Ibn Abdullah
(SAW) as well as his relatives.
After a year of sharing this deep love for Allah (SWT), Muhammad (SAW)
and his companions(ra), I began to have a stronger Aqeedah and Iman, I
was no longer insecure- so at the age of 17, I decided I would approach
the path of learning about all Sects of Islam because they are all my
Brothers (as in all those Islamic Divisions recognised as Muslims).
After reading about the Shia beliefs and why they hold such beliefs, I
realised that if we as Muslims love Allah (SWT) as much as we claim we
do, then we should love the mercy for all mankind which he sent to us
(Muhammad SAW) and if we love his Final Messenger then we should listen
to what he wanted us to do and we should love those whom he loved
dearest. It all began to make sense, We should love the Ahlul Bayt(as)
of the Prophet (SAW). I read the story of Ghadeer and I wept, I realised
that so many people had gone astray from the Prophet's wishes and that
we had turned our backs on a key principle of Islam which in my opinion
was Justice.
Where was the justice in sitting back whilst Ali(as) was kept away from
his divine right as Imam of the Muslims?
Where was this Justice when Fatima az-Zahra(as) was humiliated and
treated cruely by the first two "Caliphs" of Islam?
Where was this Justice when Imam Hassan(as), the grandson of the
Prophet(SAW) was poisoned?
Where was this Justice when Imam Husayn(as) and his family members were
slaughtered on the plains of Karbala, including his sixth month old baby
son whilst defending and saving Islam from a Tyrant Ruler who was the
epiphany of Drunkedness?
The Shia teachings all started to make sense, and I could relate to the
opression of the Innocent, Pure Ahlul Bayt of the Prophet(as), I read
books like Peshawar Nights and Nahj ul-Balagha and it all made sense, I
could see, the veil was lifted completely from my eyes instead of just
half way.
Ashadu anna ilaha ilAllah, Wa Ashadu anna Muhammadar Rasoolallah.
Allahoma Sali Ala Muhammad wa alla ali Muhammad,
Jazak'Allah Khair and Allah Hafiz,
Bro Yahya Dhulfiqar Abdus-Salaam. |